Ecstasy has changed my life...
I tried ecstasy for the first time a month and a half ago. It was the most incredable experience in my life. I had never really heard of rolling. My parrents raised me in a pretty sheltered life, and I had a shitty life in middle school and high school. All of that changed when I tried ecstasy,
Let me begin by giving you a little background on my life. At the age of 5 I was adoped by my mom and dad. I was not orphaned or born to a bad family. I was in a situation where my biological mother was schitzofrenic and unable to properly take care of me. So at the age of 5 I was adopted. I was then raised as an only child. My parrents were and still are verry overprotective. They raised me in a Christian environment, and sheltered me to the point where they had to know where I was every second of my life. This gave me little time to socialize and learn about others. I developed very few social skills.
Towards middle school, I was a social recluce. I had a few select friends, but most people ignored. Then in 7'th grade, a girl I knew descided to make up a nasty rumor about me. She started telling people that she saw me masturbating in class. This was not true, but as most middle schoolers do, they ran with the story and made my life a living hell. THis rumor lasted with me throughout middle school and high school. I had absolutely no friends in middle school and high school. I never went on a date, or even got invited to a party. So I became even more of a social recluse. THis pretty much ruined my life.
Now I am in college in Georgia and my life is starting to change. My freshman year was very uneasy. I was very stressed, and didn't know how to make friends. I spent all my time studying. At this point I still lived at home and commuted to school.
The beginning of my sophmore year (this semester) I moved out, and moved onto campus. It was a very hard transition for me, but I was a little more comfortable with meeting people. Then I met a guy named Brandon. He is an awesome guy, and became my friend. About a month and a half ago he invited me to a party. I was excited, and went. When I got there his friend was spinning techno (at the time I wasn't into techno), and everybody was dancing. Then my friend gave me a "blue smiley" and told me that it was ecstasy and that it would be awesome. It took it and had the greatest experience of my life. For the firt time in my life I was comfortable just talking to people, and they listened. It was amazing. As I said before, It changed my life forever.
I took ecstasy for the second time this past weekend and had an even better experience. I took it at a rave, at the tabernackle in atlanta. All I have to say is WOW.
I know I'm still very uncomfortable with myself, and have still never been on a date or kissed a girl, but I know that I am a little bit better of a person now that I have rolled. I don't plan on becoming addicted to it, and won't do it more than once a month, but it is an awsome drug, when used safely. Hopefully now I will have the balls to ask a girl out on a date. Since I tried it the firt time I have done a lot of reseach on it and it seems pretty safe. I guess it's a pretty good thing. If you have any questions I'll try to answer them, you can e-mail me: firstname.lastname@example.org